But interesting enough: It was very hard for me to speak in front of a camera, but technically alone in my room. Strange.

That’s not strange, it makes perfect sense. It proves the point that the difficulty people like you and I have verbalizing our sexual fantasies and desires out loud to the people we love and care for has much more to do with us than with them. ;)

Thanks for leaving a comment, and welcome, since I believe it was your first here.

Nice to read that – because I am feeling the same and thought, I was the only one. I can express my thoughts, feelings and fantasies easy by written words to my loved one, but it is very hard for me to speak them out.

Last time I tried to record a “video podcast” before our session and I wanted to fix myself into a bondage, with a hood, blindfolded etc. and leave the laptop with the video-message for her. So I thought, I could speak to her without speaking to her ;-). (BTW: The videofile was corrupt and I wasn’t able to fix it before our date, so I will try it again.)

But interesting enough: It was very hard for me to speak in front of a camera, but technically alone in my room. Strange.

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Wow, “effusive” is a good word! (Yes, I had to look that up.)

Also, small gripe: T&D scenes are incredibly easy to interrupt! I got sick last weekend, making me a bundle of crankiness, sleep, and phlegm. This is not sexy for either of us, and it’s sapping my top-mojo because I’m not in control of my own body. I’m more likely to faceplant into bed than to spend a few minutes making him squirm, which is annoying for everyone.

When you look at this particular cup half-full, all you’re really talking about is extending the T&D scene for a while. ;)

you’ve just inspired me anew. So stay tuned.

I’m glad for you that I’ve “inspired you anew,” and please send my apologies to Tyr for doing exactly that.

Hugs for you both!

I’m wondering if your discomfort in articulating your fantasies actually eroticises it… I get the impression that it doesn’t, but that would totally work for me!

Do you mean something along the lines of the discomfort in verbalizing my fantasies is, itself, an erotic experience? If so, then the answer is both yes and no. Discomfort and embarrassment, shyness and vulnerability, can both (all, actually) be erotic experiences, and I do indeed enjoy the eroticism of such sensations at times. That said, articulating fantasies verbally like this isn’t something that I find particularly erotic, so I’m inclined to believe that there is something else to this specific manifestation of anxiety.

Interestingly, your Orgasm Logger ™ counter shows a huge “Error” right now. Perhaps it doesn’t count above a certain number…? Funny!

:D That would truly be a scary thought! No, the reason there is an error is because the Orgasm Logger counter is actually down and has been offline for some time, sadly. I’m developing a new one, however, and you’re welcome to subscribe to the announcement list if you’re interested in it at OrgasmLogger.com. You can also track the development of the site at trac.OrgasmLogger.com.

As mentioned, I’m pretty busy these days so such personal projects as the Orgasm Logger are taking a back seat to Real Life, but I do hope to eventually get it up and running again soon.

Also, small gripe: T&D scenes are incredibly easy to interrupt! I got sick last weekend, making me a bundle of crankiness, sleep, and phlegm. This is not sexy for either of us, and it’s sapping my top-mojo because I’m not in control of my own body. I’m more likely to faceplant into bed than to spend a few minutes making him squirm, which is annoying for everyone.

But I’m getting better, and you’ve just inspired me anew. So stay tuned.

Interestingly, your Orgasm Logger ™ counter shows a huge “Error” right now. Perhaps it doesn’t count above a certain number…? Funny!

Ferns

I especially liked your little bit of erotica, your vignette.

Thank you! :) I’m always nervous when I share bits of fiction instead of non-fiction. For me, non-fiction is and always has been so much easier to make public. If you’re interested in more of fiction that I write, check out the Hyperfiction stuff I’d like to start, especially the StoriesList page for now.

Of course, I liked the paragraph about this being your 31st day without orgasm (32nd now I presume).

Heh, yeah, that’s obviously a highlight for me, too. It’ll be the start of my 33^rd day denied an orgasm at about 10 PM tonight, so yes, 32^nd now.

When I think of the time span, what strikes me is that I remember when 5 days was a long time. At that point, we only had reason enough to count the time between my releases in days. Then we eventually started counting in days and weeks, so it was rare that I’d get an orgasm after any length of time that was less than a week. Never before have we had a reason to count in months, so if this history is an accurate prediction of the future, I’ve got good reasons to feel (excited and) very nervous.

I just generally like reading you ;)

Again, thanks. ^_^;;

Of course, I liked the paragraph about this being your 31st day without orgasm (32nd now I presume).

Anyway, those were my highlights. But I just generally like reading you ;)