• 1st 1 at @pomosexual’s party. Being here brings back so many memories. I’m a little overwhelmed. They even have a cat, like I always wanted. #
  • Having a surprisingly hard time not playing host. Have to remember I don’t live here anymore. Should just enjoy the present, leave the past. #
  • @ironrose13 No, being at this party is surreal. I don’t know whether to be happy or sad. Choosing happy, but it’s hard. I can’t stay in NYC. in reply to ironrose13 #
  • After the party, I grab my chance to spend a night at @majamajamaja & co’s. It’s not what I expect, but I do my best to roll w/ the punches. #
  • Talks can easily turn from humorous, to annoying, to frustrating for me. Sometimes I never feel more lonely than when surrounded by friends. #
  • The lights are off but I can’t find comfort or sleep here. Leaving to return to @tylerthepup’s storage room that’s become more my own space. #
  • Safe+sound back at NYC home base. Ever more wary about seeing @SaraEileen tomorrow…I keep wanting to return to Providence, to retreat again. #
  • @drag2drop Sometimes friends are mere triggers for my own issues. Being around them can remind me how different I am+our experiences are. :( in reply to drag2drop #
  • I didn’t want to wake up today, which is not a good sign. @SaraEileen’s already on her way over(?!) and I have too many chores to attend to. #
  • On opening bag of stuff @SaraEileen brought me, I saw http://tinyurl.com/c4xpqe & instantly cried. I don’t know how to keep physical things. #
  • I give my NYC hosts books+a calligraphy pen+odds & ends. I like lightening my load. Still don’t know what to do w/ the memory-laden objects. #
  • Finished much-appreciated late lunch w/Blaise in West Village. Talked transgender masculinities+experiences in Sydney…. Almost cried—didn’t. #
  • Finishing some chores before going to a play #party. Am wary+nervously hesitant of being at play spaces in @SaraEileen’s potential presence. #
  • Had a thought to bring toys to this #play #party, then instantly decided against it. For this, I need to let be what will be, come what may. #